By: Woodrow Odom Lucas
I laid down in the bed terrified,
I felt like something was trying to take over my mind,
I could hear 2 and 3 sets of thoughts in my head,
My stomach was spasming uncontrollably,
I could not satiate my overwhelming desire to die and be free of the torment,
And I heard a still small voice in my consciousness say, “Woody, I’m here, and where I am you are safe”
And for the next 3 hours that still small voice talked me out of a madness that I wish on no one.
This experience has happened over 100 times in the past 3 years.
Over 100 times I have felt tormenting madness, and over 100 times a still small voice has talked me out of it.
Guiding me to the left and to the right.
Is the still small voice God? Is it an angel? Is it a higher form of myself? Is it a figment of my imagination? Is it a nefarious force trying to deceive me? Is it a creation of a troubled mind?
I think at different points over the last three years, it has been all of the above.
But it has guided me to a point where I am on the brink of my goal to be 100% functional and symptom free on meds.
And when I am free, I will free others.
You can count on it.