By: Woodrow Lucas
I have had an illness for a long time.
And sometimes this illness has given me hard times.
Like sometimes when I have been at work at a high paying job.
I have been at my desk surrounded by people and I have started to have stomach spasms.
And then I have started to hear voices coming from different places in my body.
Terrible, horrific voices, telling me that I am the spawn of Satan, telling me that I am going to hell forever, telling me that they would torment me for ever and ever and ever.
And I have had to sit at my desk and endure and act like nothing was wrong, because no one I worked with knew that I had an illness.
In my mind, I had no choice. Because I am a good employee, and I have always been a good employee; and I am a hard worker and I have always been a hard worker and no illness will change that.
No illness will change the man that God has made me.
Like sometimes when I have taken my youngest daughter to sporting events. I have had spasms that rise up in my body and I have heard voices telling me that I was the spawn of satan and that they would torment me forever throughout different parts of my body. And I endured until the torment passed. Because I am an excellent Dad who loves his children more than life itself and no illness will rob me of my chance to see my youngest daughter do Jujitsu, or play soccer, or play piano.
Because no illness will ever define me.
No illness will ever change who God has made me.
And as I have journeyed with this illness I have had several comforts that have made the illness easier to deal with. I have had an extremely supportive support system of family and friends. I have had medications that help to alleviate the symptoms. I have had an African Psychiatrist who is always cracking hilarious jokes about my love life and who supports me putting God at the center of my recovery. I have had an energy worker who brings God into my physical and metaphysical systems of being. I have had a therapist that helps me to process the traumas and demons within so that I can one day be free. I have had this book called “Autobiography of a Yogi”” which has introduced me to beautiful and powerful men and women full of Christ Consciousness who could do incredible things. And reading their stories has convinced me that if they can stop trains with their minds then I can overcome mental illness. Even though there is no scientific cure.
Because no illness will rob me of the life that God has promised me.
No illness will keep me from travelling the world and visiting my oldest daughter at Spellman College. No illness will define my sense of what is possible or of what can be. No illness, no label in a book, no diagnosis devised by a psychiatric mind, will define my sense of the heights that I can climb. For I am wonderfully and powerfully made in the image of God and no illness can over power that image.
And there are three more things that comfort me on my journey out of illness. Jesus, my prayer warriors, and Universalism. Jesus is my rock and my guide and no matter what torments have come upon me, he has guided me through them. Sometimes when torments have been strong and I feel panicked, I have texted my prayer warriors. These prayer warriors are beautiful men and women from all different types of religious persuasion and they have never failed me. When I have I texted they have responded with words that they are praying and I have always felt comfort from their prayers. And lastly, I adhere to a belief system called Universalism. Universalism is the idea that God loves all creatures and made all creatures and so because God loves all the creatures that God has made, God has saved us all through Jesus’ atonement and God will save us all through us eventually cooperating with her grace along our journey. My Universalism is absolute and I believe that no one escapes the merciful, generous, and gracious gift to be reconciled to God in a way that they understand. To be a Universalist you have to believe two things about God. Number one, that she is all powerful. And Number two that he is pure love. You must believe both these things about God to be a Universalist. And Universalism says to me that if God can save every creature everywhere to include the devil as evil as that guy has been, then God can heal me of mental illness, because BY JESUS’ STRIPES I AM HEALED.
Because no illness is greater than a Sovereign God of pure love and no illness can overcome the irresistible grace of God that she is pouring into me . And I tell you, I am almost free of this illness that has tried to limit me for years. I am almost free. I am knocking at the door of freedom and that door is about to open to me. Because no illness will ever define me. And no illness will ever get the victory over the indomitable will that God has given me.
NO ILLNESS WILL CURTAIL MY DREAMS COMING TRUE!!
NO ILLNESS WILL QUENCH A HOPE THAT GOD RENEWS IN ME DAILY!!
NO ILLNESS WILL EVER BE ABLE TO SAY THAT IT EVER GOT THE BEST OF THIS BROTHER!!!
FOR I AM GOD’S WARRIOR OF LIGHT, MEANT TO SPREAD LIGHT!!
AND NO ILLNESS CAN STAND AGAINST THAT DESTINY!!!